The Tip of the Iceberg

So I write a lot. In the past I have only published the odd thing here on the blog, the majority of the stuff I produce remains in the drawer never to be seen by anyone. Which is fine. Or actually for the best come to think of it.

The one time I did share some of the more personal stuff I had written it didn't go down too well at all, in fact I am sure it was partially to blame for the end of that relationship. Which is ironic really when you take into consideration that actually sharing it was a massive act of trust and love on my part. But then that's another story altogether.

This blog started as a kind of writing practise for me. More than anything it was an attempt to structure some of the stuff I write enough for me to be able to regard it as finished. Published and over and done with. Because due to a bit of performance anxiety and a girlish tendency towards perfectionism I found that I actually never finished any of the stuff I wrote.

Because when you think about it, there is of course always room for improvement when you write something. I'm the only one stopping it from being really good - or even brilliant. It is all down to me and what I manage to squeeze out. But then again if I am ever to write anything even close to good I need to practise, and I need to be able to structure things and actually finish it. So that is what I have been trying to do here.

And although you could of course question the quality of it, I am convinced it has come in really handy with the breeding website I started with a friend last year. Now I write all the time. I publish something almost every day - almost without loosing sleep over it.

In fact I almost feel bad when I spend time writing rubbish to just post here. But I have decided to keep doing it anyway. As practice, and because I quite enjoy it. And because on the odd occasion when I do feel like I've written something that is acceptable and I go back and read it again months later only to think - well, that was quite neat - it is really worth it!

And then the rest of the time it will just have to be what it is - a silly blog...